Sunday evening, our beautiful girl "Akira", collapsed due to an attack of some kind. After getting someone over to watch ds, dh and I took our big girl to the local emergency vet. They think it was some kind of stroke or seizure, most likely the latter and most likely due to her cancer having spread. While she seemed almost like her old self at the end there, we knew it was time to say goodbye.
The past couple days have been so very hard. Today is the worst though as it is the first day I've been home alone in this big, empty house. My heart is breaking and there is nothing I can do to stop it. What I wouldn't give to see that big, furry face looking up at me one more time or to be able to rub that fuzzy head. The only consolation is that my big girl isn't in any more pain.
I pray that dogs do go to Heaven and that I'll see my sweet girl again someday. Until then, I miss you so much baby girl and mama loves you, always and forever.
I'm so sorry. God is love, and so are dogs, so they must be with Him. I cannot imagine a God who creates so much love only to take it away forever. My heart aches with you.
I believe your dog is playing with our dog. My heart goes out to you. The picture is beautiful but I know not the same. Hugs to you and your family. Furry friends are part of the family and deeply missed.
You dog is indeed in heaven and having a great time there while she waits for her beloved human to join her one day. Please take comfort in knowing that she knew she was loved, is still loved. Our pet's live are too short but that is good for them because it means they are cared for their entire lives while we must carry on afterwards. To end their suffering means to accept our own suffering over losing them. She appreciates that and is free.
I am 38 years old, married to a wonderful, loving man and the proud stay-at-home mama to a beautiful little boy.
I grew up with a narcissistic mother and abusive stepfather. My half sister has always been the golden child and I, the family scapegoat who can never seem to measure up.
After years of bending over backward to try and have a good relationship with my half sister, I finally severed contact in March of 2009. Then, in January of 2010, I also severed all contact with my narcissistic mother. (Updated to add that as of May 2011, I've also cut ties with my narcissistic father and stepmother as well.) Currently, I am back in contact with my NM in a limited capacity. Walking away from all that toxicity was a LONG time coming but I can't believe how much better I feel because of it.
This diary is intended primarily to be a log of my journey toward healing from the abuses I've endured. I hope it will also become a place where others who've been cast as the family scapegoat or who've been the victims of a narcissist's abuse can find comfort in knowing they aren't alone.
I'm so sorry. God is love, and so are dogs, so they must be with Him. I cannot imagine a God who creates so much love only to take it away forever. My heart aches with you.
ReplyDeleteI believe your dog is playing with our dog. My heart goes out to you. The picture is beautiful but I know not the same. Hugs to you and your family. Furry friends are part of the family and deeply missed.
ReplyDeleteYou dog is indeed in heaven and having a great time there while she waits for her beloved human to join her one day. Please take comfort in knowing that she knew she was loved, is still loved. Our pet's live are too short but that is good for them because it means they are cared for their entire lives while we must carry on afterwards. To end their suffering means to accept our own suffering over losing them. She appreciates that and is free.
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