So the day started off badly because my ds has been sick with a fever and cold the past few days. Because I've been worried about him, I haven't slept good the past couple nights.
Dh got me a cute card and ds drew me a sweet birthday picture, so that was good. I also got an ecard from my stepmom - and dad but it's clear SM was the one to do all the work and just signed dad's name. Given SM's behavior during their recent visit, it all seemed like a bunch of fake sentiment to me. Still nice to get something though. Especially since there hasn't been so much as a peep from the rest of my N FOO.
Again, I know I should be grateful that they are leaving me alone but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't hurt. I mean, would it kill anyone to send a two second email saying, "Hope you have a great day today. Happy Birthday!"? Don't get me wrong, I'd rather hear nothing than receive some guilt-laden or otherwise manipulative email or letter, but it still hurts to not even be acknowledged. For all intents and purposes, it's like I no longer exist.
To top off this marvelous day, I've had a bad headache most of the day along with an upset stomach. Probably due mostly to stress.
I wonder if this week will bring any (bad?) surprises from the N FOO? Guess we'll have to wait and see...
About Me
- DisturbedAngel
- I am 38 years old, married to a wonderful, loving man and the proud stay-at-home mama to a beautiful little boy. I grew up with a narcissistic mother and abusive stepfather. My half sister has always been the golden child and I, the family scapegoat who can never seem to measure up. After years of bending over backward to try and have a good relationship with my half sister, I finally severed contact in March of 2009. Then, in January of 2010, I also severed all contact with my narcissistic mother. (Updated to add that as of May 2011, I've also cut ties with my narcissistic father and stepmother as well.) Currently, I am back in contact with my NM in a limited capacity. Walking away from all that toxicity was a LONG time coming but I can't believe how much better I feel because of it. This diary is intended primarily to be a log of my journey toward healing from the abuses I've endured. I hope it will also become a place where others who've been cast as the family scapegoat or who've been the victims of a narcissist's abuse can find comfort in knowing they aren't alone.
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